My BFF has dumped me, I think.
We don’t have a typical relationship to begin with: we met when we were fourteen and became fast friends. I always enjoyed the company of males more than females, as they seemed less complicated in many ways. Now that I am older, I appreciate the camaraderie of my female friends more than I ever imagined I would. However, I still find my friendships with males to be less complicated.
Anyway…my BFF. We spent a lot of time together through our high school years…and then drifted far apart. Like twenty years apart. We got back in touch several years ago and I fell easily back into our friendship. It was all the same, all familiar. We tried our hand at romance a couple of times through the years, but we were never on the same page at the same time. So we settled back into a friendship that, because of distance, we maintained mostly by e-mail.
Now even that is drifting. Although we may have gone for a length of time without corresponding, it never felt like our friendship was flailing. I wrote a few weeks ago and got a very curt response with a promise for a follow-up note. It never came.
Now I know some of you will say I should cut him some slack as the holidays are hectic. I would agree except this feels different somehow. More permanent. So my feelings are hurt.
I guess sometimes we just need to know when to let go. I’m not very good at that.
It takes a long time to grow an old friend. ~John Leonard